なんか夜になると男のこと考え出すの、疲れる。まじでもう恋愛めんどくさいから去勢したい。セックス別にいらない。恋愛感情いらない。i have such a nice guy as a husband and i still want another guy????? Give me a break I just want peace. moreover Im just trying to be detached to 👽. Im already tired with being trying always. And meeting another attractive guy helps me for nothing . It's just adding the another silent battle inside of me.
I know that problem is within me. I need to mend mental issues of myself. It's not about relying to guys online obviously but still keep thinking that it makes me have a joy. But it's not gonna be long term. And that is not actually mending my issues. But I'm tired of thinking about it anymore. I got tired of being me. I want me to be satisfied with what I have. I don't want me to desire things that I don't have. It's tiring. Who wants to break the family? Who wants to make their loved ones cry?
it was stressful today or I should say I can see things in a negative way only I don't know why
すごい気持ちの悪いモヤモヤが残ってる。頭が狂いそうだし、ネットの人間関係全部切りたい。本当に誰も信用できない。全員自分と話して嫌な気分になってるんじゃないかとしか考えられない。何も悪いことは起こってない。むしろ良いことが起こってるはずなのに、それをネガティブにしか感じられない。何なんだろ私って。しんどいなぁ。しんどい
